New Times, New Experiences

It has really been a long time since I last posted on this blog...not since april jeez!!!  My life in the mean time has gone through some serious and hopefully needed changes.  My awesome girlfriend and I of almost 4 years are taking a break right now.  Jordan says that she needs to figure out things for herself and apparently can't do that with me around.  It never feels good to be dumped, but I suppose I must deserve it for some reason.

This summer has been a pretty shitty one.  All of the drama with Jordan, I lost my job and then I also happen to get a DUI on July 20th, which happens to be the day Jordan 'dumped' me.  So that was pretty much my lifetime all time low!  Nowhere to go but up now I guess. 

Jordan says she still wants to be with me, but each time I speak with her she seems to be enjoying the single life more and more.  I really should try to do the same I guess.  I am just afraid of letting her go, we've been through a lot together.  I still feel a little angry about the situation.  I feel abandoned when I needed her most! Its just hard I guess because she has all of these new friends this year from school, while all of my school friends have moved on literally!  I guess she's getting just what she wanted now, she can hang out and party with her new buddies and not feel guilty anymore about never really introducing me to them or leaving me at home.

I am really trying to feel better about our unique situation, but I just really hope that she works everything out that she needs to.  I wish her the best with all of that.  As far as us being together again, I really hope for it, but as more time passes I am afraid she will move on too. 

Oh well...I just need to make things happen for myself now.  I recently got a new job at Safeway (its ok), and I have an interview with Wildberries Market on Monday.  I feel pretty confident that I'll get the job.  Now the issue is should I work two jobs and run myself into the ground or just work one?  However, I really think I'll be needing the income from two jobs to pay off all of this DUI bullshit.  What a disaster!  'Fortunately' I know quite a few people in this area who have DUIs too haha!  They should be able to tell me what I can expect on Sept 1 (court)